Pain drain

It happens a lot. That uneasy feeling. An intense feeling of pain. No it's not physical pain that I am talking about. It's emotional. Having delivered a child and having undergone a surgery for a rather painful fracture requiring insertion of steel plates in my leg, I feel that the pain from these is nothing. For they heal with time. Human body can bear this pain and survive. But can the human heart bear the pain from an emotional encounter and survive? Strangely yes! Survival is more biological. What effect does it have on the internal mind? When emotionally drained, doesn't one feel like a vegetable? You go numb. You are breathing, you are doing your work, you are being you, but something inside is not responding.It's like that thing has been stabbed and stunned. Have you ever felt this pain- like a thousand needles being pierced and at the same time a gut wrenching shout being stiffled into a silent sob. A sob that no one will hear, no one will notice.

If a person has someone by his side whenever he needs, he might be the luckiest one alive. But I doubt that. There are times when you feel utterly lonely. May even be that at times you feel it best to bear the pain silently by your self than try explaining it to someone. I think all of us need such moments once in a while. If not for anything else, to realise how insignificant we are in this spectacle called Universe, to remind ourselves of the greater suffering that exists around, to value companionship, to understand how it feels to be utterly helpless, to get stronger and most importantly to try to be a little more sensitive to another's pain, having suffered pain yourself.