Mind speak

ज़िन्दगी मुझको सताना छोड़ दे रूठी हुई है, बताना छोड़ दे मनाने के लिए सब्र है किस्मे? हसाने के लिए चाह है किस्मे? बदल गया है सब कुछ यहाँ पे  रेहे गया पीछे सब कुछ, तू छोड़ आई जहाँ पे बीत गयी जो, छूट गयी जो, बेहता पानी, ना हाथ आने वाला. पछतावे में उम्र सारा ना गुज़रे बदल जाए ना मंज्हर, बदले ना चेहरे तू चली जाए, दो दिनका रोना है जो गया सो गया, जो है ना उसको खोना है सास रही जब तक, तुझे है आगे चलना  थक के, हारके ही सही, तुझे फिर भी है संभलना

As I was watching tiny drops of rain fall down, I was thinking what does a free fall feel like. I know I can try bunjee jumping to get an answer. But that’s the point. What if I am not that adventurous or that courageous? If I were suddenly straddled to a rope and harness and pushed off a cliff I can imagine the sheer panic that would create.  I wonder what thoughts would flash my mind in that few seconds.  The rope could give away, I could get a heart attack and the adrenaline rush might stifle me.  But wouldn’t there also be something so liberating about it? The feeling of just falling or sinking into oblivion is inexplicable. I have been into that abyss many a times. I have dropped from heights, touched the bottom and risen again. The emotional tide that I often ride is no less an adventure. A heart that does not feel is like a dead ant. What use is an ant that does not run or scurry about?  Every time I flow along with the ebb, the fear is there, the emotio...

I don't belong here. This is not my home. These strangers are not my friends and family! The places look unfamiliar, the road unknown. Am I trying too hard to fit in or is it that I was not meant to be here in the first place? It's strange how things can change so much that it gets beyond recognition. Is the change within me or in the world outside? It's hard to tell. The truth however is that I am lost! I try to keep up with the pace but I guess I am too slow. People around me no longer bring comfort. I would rather spend a day all by myself, in my own company. Everyone is so busy being upset with you that no one realises you could be upset too. All of a sudden one stern word you said, one argument you had becomes your fault. It overrides the many arguments and rude words other may have often uttered. It's exhausting to always be the one to make the call, to always be the one to check on others. Who calls you when you need someone to talk? Who checks on you when you ...

What do you bring to the table that's different? What do you have to offer that nobody else can? What makes you leave a mark that cannot be erased? What can ensure that you live on even after you are gone? Once we find the answers to these questions we will realize that it’s all so momentary- money, fame, family, career. Someone will come and beat your highest score; somebody will create a new record over riding yours. Someone will become the next sensation; somebody will find a way to earn more money than you.  There will always be new water flowing to replace the old; there will always be new seeds to grow new life.  We slog our whole lives and then one day we are gone- just like that! The important thing is- did we live each moment? Did we make at least one face smile? Did we help wipe away at least a drop of tear? Did we love wholeheartedly rather than wait to be loved, fearing reciprocation?  It’s not a perfect life and we are not perfect creations. We just imp...

Yesterday was Daughters Day. The joy a daughter can bring can only be felt by someone who has experienced the pure and unconditional love that a daughter gives. My daughter brings sunshine into our lives, she possesses a gentle touch that can heal all wounds. She cares for me like none can, she cries when she sees tears in my eyes, she understands when I am angry and tries to make it better for me. She smothers me with kisses so delicate and sweet, wraps me in hugs that can keep me warm for a lifetime. She makes me laugh when things seem too hazy and dark. She fusses and throws a fit when things don't go her way but understands that she has crossed the line when she sees me angry. She stumbles and falls and hurts herself every day. Yet the pain never shows on her pretty little face! She has come into my life and changed me for the better. Life is no longer about shopping sprees, hanging out with friends or a sudden movie plan. It’s about play time at parks and shared ice cre...

I read this beautiful thought this morning- A person tired and fed up of Life asked God: Why so many mountains and hills to climb in life? God replied: To have a better view of life! Aren't we all so busy complaining about minor things that we miss out on enjoying the good things that come our way. We crib about the traffic and fail to appreciate the health benefits of a walk. We sulk about the weather when it's too hot and when it's too cold. What would be good weather for us then? We complain that it's difficult to handle a toddler and complain again when they grow up because then it's the burden of school and home work. In the process we miss out on their childhood. We are unhappy when there is too much work and unhappy again when there is hardly any work to do. We get tired of home food and get bored when we eat out too often. We crib about the high cost of living and yet will only buy branded and the best of things! We feel neglected when our loved ...

A bit of love, a bit of hope, a bit of dreams, a bit of dissapointment, a bit of luck, a bit of failure, a bit of happiness, a bit of sorrow, a bit of friendship, a bit of family, a bit of search, a bit of contentment, a bit of remorse, a bit of gratification, a bit of dissatisfaction, a bit of peace, a bit of challenge, a bit of revenge, a bit of prayer, a bit of action, a bit of favour, a bit of achievement, a bit of help, a bit of independence, a bit of faith, a bit of skepticism, a bit of this and a bit of that, a bit of everything but a bit too less, Is that what it's all about?